Sunday, August 27, 2006
MSN Conversation with my lovely daughter, Shanise Ho Xuan Ni! :
coldfusion_91@hotmail.com says:
oh yknow my mum said my spaghetti's really niceeeee!
coldfusion_91@hotmail.com says:
haha
dawn_say_hi@hotmail.com says:
:/ she's your mom.
coldfusion_91@hotmail.com says:
but she finished the whole plate!
dawn_say_hi@hotmail.com says:
i bet you'll find some on the floor. haha
dawn_say_hi@hotmail.com says:
or in her handbag
coldfusion_91@hotmail.com says:
arghhhh
I love you loads, asS HOle (:
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Anyway, i'm counting down to 20th September. 25 more days!!! Actually, there's really nothing to be happy about because that's 600 more hours ): I'm really clear on how long a minute is (Jing made me wait for her at the SMELLY bus stop for 45 mins, i was STARING AT PHONE; counting), so 600 hours, IS HELLLLL! I'm clueless what's gonna happen in the remaining 25 days because things dont just evaporate but it accumulates. I seriously hateeee getting into those shithead emotional cycle and i thought i could control my emotions well
but you are just my weakness. Why?
"You sound stupid Dawn, shut that up."This week was pretty okay i guess. I only got my notes done. Everything is slowing down, i feel lathargic every day. My revision is ON HOLDDDD!
What's friggin happening? I thought i would be able to focus better without you but no, i'm wrong. There's a gap between me and the breakfast group (Cheryl, Hannah, Sa and Shanise); I dont know when things have started changing but it's different now. Obviously, i'm upset about it. I know i appear to be harsh and cold at times, all the time but I don't like it when my relationships with others strain too. Perhaps, it's the consequences of my actions but i really dont know what i did wrong. OR rather, maybe everyone's just more up-to-task now, less play.
Dawn, please focus.Everything's in the wrong place now.
It has been since God knows but what differs is that I'm finally facing it. (at the wrong time) God, friends, emotions, focus, determination, motivation, family, values/beliefs... the list goes on, ALL WRONG.
i miss you ):
