YOUTH

Sunday, September 25, 2005

12:02 PM

i dont know what to say, what to do
i thought i've already been able to pull myself out from all these
but i guess i was just deceiving myself & escaping for the past few months,
so much for being a nerd. i'll still try though

friday was the best day i've had in ages
perhaps it's because i didnt attend school where all these come from;
home studying & studying
had a great time with fang ying during math tuition, thanks!
mrs seow told fang ying this "fang ying, you must be glad that dawn had joined a-prime with you..." heh x)

anyway, i thought today would be like any other day until i receive that phone call;
i realised i've not been able to face all these,
i thought i was alright because i've been running away from it
i guess everyone does not want to face it too
oh well, i just wished that i didnt have to face all these and that we'll always be the same,
like who we were in primary school; innocent & true

i never want to grow up, why cant time stop?
why cant everything stay the same like i've just entered earth?
parents wont age, continue to work and provide for their children
children just stay as that & play
the innocent will stay the same while the bad wont get worst.
when modern tecnology plays no part in our lives,
or maybe where there was no sin; adam and eve obeyed God

everything's too fact-paced and complicated for me.
i'll never survive in this society
i'll never be able to comprehend
i'll never be able to understand people
i'll never be able to grab hold of anything, not myself